Facets

protection
familiar waves
vibes
familiar eyes
moments
drain dry
happiness, loveliness
-necessities
no guarantees
sleepover
whys?
reason?
no 'no's'
yes
dreamy sky
change
never be the same
someone will
understand

lol so did i tell you that my friend r aka "ginoza-kun" bought me the lockon stratos statue for christmas? haha... he's bought me all of my most prized figures. m&m, t.k., and now lockon. ughhh well although i see m&m and t.k. as more of my sons than anything else, lockon is most definitely not in the son category. h-hey, there's boys you put into the son category, and there's men you put into the husbando category. and i'm sorry but neil dylandy i would totally date you. UHHHH--haaaahaha, yeah so what? the fangirl is back and in fact has never even left the building. blink blink.

although isn't it so odd now that noctis is like 20 and i'm like 27? sure, cloud can still be around 24~25 but the older i get, the funnier it is that teenage karin actually had crushes on these fictional guys. hey, well they're dreamy, and they're an escape from reality; most people like love stories, and romance--that's all been such a big part of our culture for generations. since the dawn of effin' time. they're like the actors in dramas ok.

and omg wiki just told me cloud's official birth year is 1986. so hey, i'm '91 so technically i'll just tack a year on for each of my own, eh? lol i don't know why i'm even trying to rationalize this fantasy to you. i guess the older i get the more self-critical i've become. is this normal?

wow is dis a young baby noct? see here i would file him into the "son" category, not unlike roxas. must protecc, lol. and i can see he exists in the time of emo-hair bois, because wow look at that hair. someone throw some 'my chemical romance' on, quick!


you know,
someone has to be evil. not everyone can be good or striving. and i think a lot of people don't recognize that.

i need to learn to change my own thought pattern, too. because they're hazy. i'm hazy. befitting black haze.

fake people are pretty scary, even though i am one. maaaaaaask
but don't worry, it's chipped and cracked and
falls off most of the time, often in the midnight hours.

it's scary to think about how other people live their lives and if it's anything like my own. probably not since everyone has different experiences, but for me, i've discovered that i often meet a lot of similar people, or people that remind me of another friend i have. i have a lot of friends, but not nearly enough attention to pacify them all. i'm not unhappy with it, but it can get tiring at times. people are basically all still children you know?