Imagine

i'm always careful
not to fall too deep
into a world
i can't keep
sometimes i can't sleep
wonderin' why i can't meet
the one for me
am i too weak?
no certainty
that God hears my pleas







Another night of confusion - but where does it end? Where does it start? Since the beginning of time, things - confusion - w-what? what is love?


love? i've never
really known what love is
except love for myself
isn't that
selfish?

human
condition
emotion
inhibition

as real as they come
beginning and ending as one

Turn Around

Life is full of these uncomfortable feelings that shake me as I grow. I am thankful for these experiences, the opportunity to acknowledge my pain points and the areas in which I need to grow and mature. But the discomfort shakes me to my core, I want to run away, to flee and hide and pretend like I don't want to reach up for what I am seeking to find.

Upside Down

Lol, guess who called me just before 11PM yesterday? Mar.
What is his problem...?

Dice Daze

Howdy, y'all. Last night was yet another session of DnD, hosted at yours truly. It really seems like things are getting intense! We've been running this campaign for about 4 months and I'm really glad we are powering through everything.

I finally caved and bought my first set of dice from Chessex - ta-da~!

Water by Chessex

It took me a while to decide which set I wanted to get first, but since my character Maya has a swan as her family sigil, I decided this set was fitting. I then splurged on two other sets of even more beautiful dice from Gamescience! So I'll photograph those when I receive them.

Middle Ground

I woke up after a long sleep and still felt groggy. It's Saturday, but I don't have anything planned except to go home and perhaps exercise? Another busy day tomorrow - when does it ever end? I suppose when I'm dead and gone to the next stage of life - which is eternal happiness in heaven. So, until then, I have to endure the daily grind and enjoy the moments of reprieve when they happen.

Today is a very strange day for me, where I'm left feeling neutral about everything. Neither pleased, nor displeased. Things are unfolding the way they should be! I am grateful for that; I keep pressing on.

Valentine's Day was a lot of fun. I got chocolates, flowers, a card, and even a Chikorita plushie from my Valentine. I suppose I have a new one each year, don't I? I-is that bad?

Restoration

Life is always filled with ups and downs, and it is how we react to downfalls - how we stay steady - that defines our strength.

Visitor

Last night was a bundle of warmth on a cold February's day.

After Party

This is how it ends. A lost umbrella, harsh words, and stinging. Lots of stinging. Smoke-in-her-eyes stinging. She saw it coming, but refused to believe it until the words left his lips. She had no choice.

But I'm a sunflower, a little funny
If I was a rose, maybe you'd pick me