Crystal Dream Carnival

I have to leave for school soon. I just thought I'd put my fashion show photos up -- you know, the ones with RinRin and me.

Everyone said RinRin Doll was nice, but I personally thought she HAS to be nice because she's a model. It's her public persona. I secretly felt that she thought we were weird or strange. But people can't always be open with how they feel.

All I can say is, I don't like the way my nose looks... Argh, so flat. Other than that, I'm pretty comfortable with the way my body is... but in photos, every model has such a high nose. ;_;

It's not like people don't love me for who I am. My boyfriend, family and friends care about me just fine... but it's just how we see ourselves, you know? That crack in the mirror and us criticizing ourselves based on the standards set by society.

I know this but how come I follow it blindly???

At least she signed some post cards for me...~ That was sweet of her.

Instagram quality, haha!!!

I'm thinking about ordering a cake for my boyfriend's birthday. We've been doing all right... ^^ I'll post some ideas soon.

I might as well also post these photos here~ My short-lived lolita days:

RinRin's Meet & Greet @ Cactus Club

High tea @ Rose House

northwest fan fest 2014

so i was lucky enough to be selected as a model for fairytale boutique @nwff. i modelled a gorgeous blue dress from automatic honey called "moonlight pegasus". the dress was covered in individual crystals and was very beautiful. the headdress was a veil with more crystals, and... everything was just very elegant and extravagant.

i'm so lazy to post photos... lol but i should, what kind of blogger am i, anyway... the answer to that is, a bad one. hah~

borrowed my friend's btssb scepter~

Model's group shot~ i-is it cute?

it was a really fun experience, and i got to spend time with two of my local lolita friends... i really felt so lucky to be there. i won't forget my happy feeling... such an experience, i'm so thankful for.

i really hope i can get the chance to model for angelic pretty when they come to vancouver this august. i don't really have anything to look forward to recently... but no point in worrying, if i can just focus on improving myself, things should be fine, right?

filled with poison / but blessed with beauty and rage

once upon a dream

Michael's Blessing Rose Headband &
Searching for Baroque Pattern Tights♡

My rose hair accessory and tights from BABY arrived today. The little pink roses look so delicate, and exquisite at the same time... seems really delicate. The entire band is wrapped up in pink ribbon. I can't wait to wear this coordinate~

The fashion show is on Saturday, so I have to prepare for that. At least I have the day off... I'll upload more photos of things I bought later. I haven't had much time for personal things lately...

yeah my boyfriend's pretty cool  |  but he's not as cool as me

-lana del rey, brooklyn baby

Untitled Morning

This morning was a morning of mixed emotions. ( p′︵‵。)

I woke up really early and 자기야 came over with his big suitcase, since he was leaving Vancouver on a flight later that afternoon. We got into a tiff over trivial matters, but managed to solve our disagreement with enough time to eat a lovely breakfast at "Locus" on Main St.

I've been there with my BFF before, and last time I got the benny special, which happened to be smoked turkey. I didn't like it *too* much, but the nugget potatoes and coffee are always good to me! My friend got the wild boar poutine, which was a very flavourful and unique dish.

Obligatory food photo of my meal~

I don't have a photo of what I ate this morning, since most of the time I don't take photos of my food anymore; I just eat it! But this morning's choice was much more satisfying than my previous one. I chose the "Main St. Eggs" with bacon, which was delightful.

오빠 got the "Steak & Eggs", which was delicious too. He was really full once we were finished eating, and we both had 2 cups of coffee each. (´；ω；`)

Then we drove to the airport and he had to go check in for his flight while I went back home to do my own things. Yeah... bye-bye, 오빠... I don't know how the time is going to pass by from today on...!!!

Afterwards, I went to Metrotown to meet up with a local lolita to hang out. I also met up with a local alpaca fanatic, ("Alpaca Galore" on Facebook) to adopt this adorable alpaca prince from her. He is such a sweet, cute little baby: a 12cm white prince.

His name is Wilfred. What a tiny, adorable cute little baby!!! ♡

I hope to get two more little babies, another girl and boy. I think the "Caffe Kids" series' beige butler with the green bowtie is adorable, and so is the pink girl from the "Powa Powan" series. I'm mostly likely going to get those two, we'll see~~~

Anyway, my lolita friend and I went to my place to hang out and chat a bit. We watched "Mister Rococo", which was an odd piece of comedy... and that was my day. A bit stressful, and I miss my baby...

Oh, but the one ray of sunshine today is that my BABY dress arrived:

Scalloped hem = love~

I love it a lot, it's like a sister dress to Chocolate Fascinate Fairytale. Anyway, thanks for visiting.

"Chocolate Princess"

On April 5th, I participated in a small spring fashion show for the "Sakura Days Japan Fair". This event took place at VanDusen Botanical Garden. A lot of local lolita showed up in their frilly dresses to take part in this event.

I chose to wear my Chess Chocolate Jabot JSK and that boston bag I waited so long for. Yeah, a lot of gals commented on my chocolate bag and congratulated me for finally finding it! Which I smiled because it really is a charming bag, if bags can be such things. (*´∀｀*)

Chess Chocolate Jabot JSK! ｡*ﾟ✲*☆
Chocolate from head to toe. I'm a basic lolita.

I like to refer to myself as a "basic lolita", referencing the slang term "basic b*tch". It basically means that my style is a generic style of sweet lolita that all sweet lolitas love. You know, Angelic Pretty, pink, chocolate, etc.

I don't find anything wrong with that, it's just that I haven't really developed my style to become unique like some of the seasoned lolitas I know. But I suppose one could use this term for lolita of all categories, because gothic lolitas love black lace and MmM (haha) and... well, country lolita must love strawberries, straw hats and... plaid? IDK. All I know is that for now, I'm fine being basic in my sweet style. (Did I mention I also love roses, cute little animals, and candy hearts? Lol.)

More coming soon? I should post a big group photo of us all, and introduce the new (and old) friends I met, but for now I just wanted to document another successful outing in lolita! *^^* I did resolve to wear my frills more, didn't I?

The majority of active members in the Vancouver lolita community attended.
[ Photo Credit: Dale L. ]

Thanks for visiting~~

Chocolat Dance Party

I should be sleeping... but instead, I'm not! I'm blogging! (*´꒳`*) Because I said I would try and blog more, so I will keep my promise to myself. If you have blogger too, let's follow each other! I want to encourage others to write about their daily events, too. Or whatever is on their mind..!

I wanted to share my photos... yeah~ you know me, just a little bit of lolita-related items and cute things. I don't have an interesting life lately! Work, school, and a bit of leisure time is pretty much my fall/winter this year.

My gorgeous AP boston bag♡ I haven't used yet, but I will carry to a fashion show this April.

Some exciting(?) news is that I bought the Bon-Bon Chocolat Dance Dance Dance Cafe Milk JSK in the "double chocolate" colourway instead of "chocolate vanilla"! This is new for me since I always buy light-coloured prints, I rarely have any dark prints.

I've never bought a dress with navy blue detailing before. I love the scalloped hem~
The whole dress looks like a light chocolate wafer ♫꒰･‿･๑꒱

I like the dark blue! I am slowly drifting away from pink, yeah? (No! Pink is my favourite colour! But I wouldn't get this print in pink.) Actually, I only have two BABY dresses, the other being Chocolate Fascinate Fairytale, and that dress is indeed in pink.

...Sometimes I wonder why I am a sweet lolita? Some people hate on sweet style because it is a common style in lolita fashion, but to be honest sweet is really hard to wear! Everyone will stare and think you are a little girl, or have some strange wish to be a little girl again. But I just love beautiful dresses and I feel this style really expresses my inner personality to be free from society's constraints to conform!!! (Haha, dramatic.)

In truth, I think gothic is much more mature and elegant, and black makes the wearer seem more mature and respectable than a sweet candy dress. But, I love chocolate and sweet prints (same as many other lolita) so I can't help that my style is more common. Who can resist chocolate or biscuit purses? I can't.

Speaking of purses, I bought a purse for casual wear last week.

Betsey Johnson

Nothing special, just an off-brand bag I was attracted to because of the quilted heart stitching.

A lot of the bags I have, I rarely wear out because Vancouver is so rainy, and I (try to) take really good care of my belongings. Several times I carried out my Miu Miu bag and it started to rain... So I remedied that by getting a bag I wouldn't mind getting wet! (Leather is so fickle...)

This bag is actually really spacious, and keeps my makeup bag, wallet, keys and phone all neatly inside. I've never bought anything from Betsey Johnson before, but apparently some of her designs for accessories are popular.

Lastly, I took some photos with a demo of the newest HTC phone! It's called the HTC One (M8). I wish more phones came in pink! Anyway, this doesn't come in pink. But from what I heard, it's a solid phone with several people pre-ordering it before release date. Worth checking out~

Mandatory work selfie with my manager.
I won a free donut from the roll-up-the-rim-to-win, hehe~

Thanks for visiting!!! ♡♡♡
I hope fellow lolitas also enjoy and share their recent purchases~ (ॢ˘⌣˘ ॢ⑅)

Spring

Hello~ off to high tea! Photo by my younger sister ^.^

Hello~ I don't normally blog late at night anymore, or in general really, because I'm not one of those gals who like to show off a lot of my private life to the public. I'm too lazy to take photos of my experiences, and I'm also shy to write about my thoughts and feelings. But hey, it's 2014 and I'm not getting any younger. So here I am!

What's new with me? A lot of working. But I've also been spending time with my friends and my boyfriend's friends as well. I attended Shaun/Shawn's??? birthday party at "JOEY BENTALL ONE" and had a really delicious steak. I also spent time together in the same group of friends to eat fried chicken and beer. I've been having casual moments like that after work. It's a mature, and also nice experience for me. I needed this sort of change in my life, you know? Like some stability and actually liking and trying to get along with people who try and understand and respect me.

I've been to high tea several times, once with my younger sister and younger brother and my boyfriend, but also once with my best friend. Unfortunately I usually dress casual when I'm out day-to-day, so I didn't wear lolita... Anyway, my BFF and I have been watching "ATTACK ON TITAN" together, and it's been super funny.

My style of teacup at "LA PETITE CUILLERE" on Kingsway~
One of my favourite places to visit, because I love their darling darjeeling tea on a relaxing afternoon...

I need to keep my head up. No need to stoop down to other people's level. I'm happy and content the way I am~ and I don't live for negative reasons. I try not to, anyway! I'm independent (to an extent!), I'm rocking this semester in university, I have a car and money to spend and supporting&loving parents, family, friends, loved ones~~ I want for nothing, but it seems I'm in a state of anomie. But I don't want to turn into one of those horrible people who spend money carelessly to show off to others, because I believe people can tell if someone is really of substance or not. I suppose we'll see in the future who goes and stays in life, and who is really worth committing to in the end.

On the lolita end of things, my beloved Chess Chocolate Jabot JSK in ~pink~ arrived safely a couple weeks back! Gosh, she is gorgeous and I already dreamt up a coordinate for her. I can't wait to wear her out, but we'll see~

Beauty~ Ever since I sold the OP, I was searching for the jabot JSK.
I miss the jabot on the OP though, I regret selling it because the jabot JSK's jabot is pin-on, which I dislike. In hindsight, I should have kept the OP's jabot and sold the OP for a discounted price... but oh well!

I also received a lovely JSK from my wishlist: "EMILY TEMPLE CUTE" Chocolatier Rabbit JSK in beige! I got the dress from a sweet Toronto lolita I chat with occasionally. She's super sweet, I enjoy talking with her because she's just a genuine person. I think, anyway!

I love ETC. The dresses are detailed, fanciful, and gorgeous! I own a lot of the brand's rare coveted prints. When I wear casual-style, I feel more "at ease", if that makes sense. I love MILK, Q.POT, EMILY TEMPLE CUTE, those sort of brands... It gives me less pressure than donning full-on lolita. However, BF calls otome-kei "elementary school" look...ㅠ.ㅠ I don't see what's wrong with wearing cute dresses at an older age. The quality is completely different! I'd dress my kids in Emily Temple ANYDAY!

Lolita takes up a large part of my expenses. But my most recent purchases have been AATP Diamond OTK in gold, AP's Royal Chocolate Boston Bag (1st release!!!) and BABY's Bon-Bon Chocolat Dance Dance Dance JSK in Cafe Milk! I wonder how to coordinate these things? I wish I could get the headbow, too. We'll see!!!

Should I not mix PRETTY and BABY? XD Some lolita would think that, wouldn't they~~??? Thanks for visiting!!!

International Women's Day / J-Fest

Today I was unsure whether I was going to attend J-Fest, which is an annual mini-con. I don't normally attend conventions because I'm not deeply into anime or anything. The only anime I really like is "Attack on Titan", which most people already know... 

Anyway, I decided to go because going to conventions is fun for me to see the cosplayers as well as other lolita. I bumped into some of the local Vancouver lolita -- I believe Kelleigh and Charlene -- and we chatted briefly. But I'm still quite shy from all the people asking to take my photo. Doing so makes me nervous. Anchovy said he's worried people will use my photos for indecent things, but a lot of cosplayer's photographs get taken at conventions. So really, to me, it must not be that bad???

I wore AP's "Holy Night Story" with "Holy Lantern" socks~
I really wanted to wear this print during Christmas but I was too shy.

Bunny teapot~ I improved so much as a lolita from my past years!

I really hope I find Angelic Pretty's Royal Chocolate boston bag (first release) in time for April! I am planning a coordinate with the pink Chess Chocolate JSK mentioned in my previous post. I haven't decided which OTK or shoes to match with that coordinate yet, but I will be taking photos with flowers in a lolita fashion show...? *^^* SELF-MOTIVATE MYSELF TO DO THINGS THAT MAKE ME HAPPY~~ like lolita fashion~~

I should wear my royal chocolate socks or maybe the new AATP diamond socks in gold? Even after I reminded myself to stop spending money on brand over-the-knee socks, I couldn't help it... They are just too gorgeous...!!!

Being Patient

Yesterday night I was lying in bed and thinking how horrible the world is because everyone is born different sizes. I wish there was a standard size everyone's body would be born as. No only would bullying and eating disorders not exist, but everyone's self esteem would be higher (although I suppose humans would just find something else to laugh at others about).

The incident that triggered this trail of thought was a Chess Chocolate dress from Angelic Pretty. As you may know, I am seeking the pink jabot JSK for an upcoming New Year's gathering. However, the one seller I've found is of a reasonably bigger size than I am. (I am 82~84CM bust, 63cm waist; the seller is about 100cm bust alone). I know that Chess Chocolate is considered to be a good plus-sized dress because of the full back shirring, but now I'm concerned that when I receive the dress, the shirring will be all stretched and worn out. My Wonder Story dress in red, which I also bought from a friend who is a larger size than me, already has the elastic in the shirring loose-ish when I pulled on it. (Compared to my Honey Cake and Sugar Hearts JSK which have like-new back shirring).

I really don't like how lolita fashion makes everything one-size. Even Emily Temple Cute dresses are a bit loose on me, but they are still a better fit than AP. I feel a little annoyed that the dresses are stretched out by larger wearers that eventually resell them (used). I know this is selfish of me, because humans cannot control what size their bodies will be, but I just feel annoyed that such a beautiful and perfect dress may not fit me (and already even if bought brand-new, the standard measurements still wouldn't fit me well).

I'm not saying plus-sized lolitas shouldn't wear lolita, I'm just frustrated at how hard it has been to find the dress I want to buy. And the one seller I did find happens to be of a different size than I am, just makes me a bit troubled...

And lol while I was typing this some old man stopped to "admire how fast I typed" and told me how he used to teach people how to type on typewriters. But now he cannot even type on the computer anymore! Oh, the woes of aging, and also the woes of shirring... 

Pink Biscuit

My Emily Temple Cute biscuit JSK arrived this week and the dress is super cute. (ღ˘⌣˘ღ)♫ I don't regret swapping the ivory for the pink, because pink suits into my wardrobe a lot better.

Slapped together an experimental coord: everything ETC, except the bag~

I rarely see any photos of the biscuit dress in pink. I only see it in the ivory and blue colour. So I'm pretty stoked to wear this dress. Although the cutting at the bust of my ivory dress was a bit nicer, I'm not going to mind it.

I made a hair bow out of my hair~~or maybe they are cat ears?

Thanks for visiting!!! (´ ▽｀).。ｏ♡

Lacy Cat Princess II

A test coordinate in darker colours for fall.（*＾＾*)
This is the photos of the coordinate I described in the earlier post~

AP's Lacy Princess JSK, Grimoire tights, Antique BeasT headdress

Since this is my first black coordinate (I usually deck myself in pink, white, beige and lighter colours) I did not have a black blouse, but luckily this Juicy Couture blouse matches well with the ensemble. I will wait and see what the finalized coordinate will look like!

Thanks for visiting!*･゜ﾟ･*✧˖°

Lolita Post: Brand Shoes

I can't sleep, and seeing how the time is almost 2AM in Vancouver, I might as well blog about something that has been heavy on my mind -- pretty pink brand shoes from my favourite brands, Angelic Pretty and Emily Temple Cute. T___T

Pink AP Tea Parties

Animal Crossing x Lolita Fashion

Lately I have been playing a lot of Animal Crossing: New Leaf on my Pikachu 3DS XL!  It's a lot of fun because I just discovered how to use QR codes to import custom designs for my character to wear. Currently, she is wearing a dress from the lolita indie brand Vierge Vampur!

Easter Holiday 2013

I've been really lazy to update this blog.  It's in a very messy state, but much like other things in my life. But I will try and be more organized... (If this is even possible... haha keeping a blog updated is very time-consuming)

So, my dear father came back to visit during April, which is also the time of my little sister's birthday. She turned 18!!! So it was great for her, I ended up getting her a cute shirt with a kitty wearing red glasses, and a pair of red TOMS shoes. I think she is happy with it... I hope so!

On that Sunday morning the cherry blossoms around our neighbourhood were in bloom so I was able to take some photos! And some of them, my dad was in the picture as well.

Attempt at being artistic~~

Odds & Ends

Hello, all. I took little photos of ensembles and pieces I put together on a whim. Don't mind me, this post isn't of much value other than filler~~

I was really glad my long-awaited Royal Choco socks finally came. And I was actually at a loss for what to do with the 6%DOKIDOKI glitter clips I bought. For a while it seemed like they were going to waste... but I found a way to incorporate them into my closet somehow!

I customize my Chess Choco headbow by adding 6%DOKIDOKI glitter clips~ 

February Update

Hello, all~

I have not blogged in a long time, but I have had many adventures. Valentine's Day is fast approaching! I wonder what surprises will arrive this Thursday...?~

For starters, I did go on a little lolita adventure with two local gals. We didn't venture anywhere too special or too far, but rather went to "Shaktea" which is on Main St. I finally got to wear Honey Cake in a full coord. I finally got to give my Prisila wig some love~ although I still need to work on perfecting the curls. Most of them are tangled...  

Just My Style?

Yesterday, after work, I went home and tried on a new dress I received. Finally, Sheep Garden arrived in my closet! YuShan was kind enough to come to the post office with me to pick up the package~~ I was trying the jumperskirt on over a blouse and tried a new hair-style technique:

Apologize for no make-up at this time~

Finally I think I can get a style similar to my Pet Society character from a long time ago... Don't you think?

Lately I have been feeling very surprised over a certain customer I met. I've been not having a very good time...!!! But perhaps I will write about it later.

THANKS FOR WATCHING!

Biscuit Bag

The only package that has arrived in a while has been the Swimmer biscuit bag. I jumped onto the bandwagon for this popular bag that a lot of lolita seem to own. Only, I chose to get it in the hand-bag style as opposed to shoulder bag because the strap on the shoulder bag is flimsy and awkward to pose with. I don't mind having to hold a bag, I think it's quite elegant. 

Biscuit-y overload~

Love the attention to detail. 

I really have to stop buying these cookie/biscuit related goodies. I don't even really like biscuits, but these designs are too cute to resist. I also noticed the Japanese brands love to use French words in their pieces.  It's quite amusing. I should create some image print with random French words too, that would be cute. YuShan keeps telling me to draw again, but I just don't know about it ~

THANKS FOR WATCHING!