Values

I did a terrible thing. Yes, I did. Four times over it happened. But situations like that take two to tango, and there was only so much willpower to be had against someone like me.

Setting a trap and disregarding my own dignity. For no purpose but self satisfaction. I should feel sorry, shouldn't I? But I only feel satisfaction. I am not different after all. I am a monster, the same as anyone else.

Dignity

It took me so long to finally sever the cord.

Stepping Stones

now the time is right you wanna do me so wrong

the truth is the salt in an open wound. my heart is torn open and i'm 11/10 raw from being awoken by pipe dreams that stir up my soul, my hopes and desires flaming!

so many people i'm thankful for in my times of sadness, when the tears won't stop because they're fuel from the stream of my soul. however! everything serves its purpose, pain serves its purpose. i've used people for the wrong reasons and that's on me, because i wanted an image. and honestly, everyone is replaceable one way or another.

i guess what made everything so perfect was how easy everything was. it was so perfect. it was everything! but i've had that before. it really doesn't mean anything, after all, it could be with anyone. but those two 'someones' both have to be in agreement. and this time i guess it's the same i predicted but didn't hope to find.

that we weren't in the same place and he can't do anything about it isn't his fault. bondage is a pretty harsh thing. i have my own issues but i sometimes wonder if other people don't want to be with me because i'm 'not enough'. then i laugh and think, yeah right. people who don't want to be with me don't feel like they can live up to the expectations that i deserve.