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Wednesday, July 31, 2019
White-collar Life
Hello! I've been gradually settling into my new position as a KE. It's basically an admin and technical support position where we assist front-line agents. I am grateful that God has allowed me to naturally progress on my journey in life. I always have no idea where I'm going to end up, but hindsight always puts me in a position of learning.
Yesterday, I was upstairs on my old office floor of 8, walking around to provide support to my peers. I truly did feel like Byleth the professor surveying around the monastery, especially since I am technically a tier above my fellow agents and some of them are more tenured and have way more technical knowledge than I possess. I suppose I lend my assistance in other ways. I am focusing on bettering myself overall, so if I can achieve that goal bit-by-bit, I'm happy.
My colleague Rico, who recently came back from Japan, brought back a Sailor Venus doll for me! She's the cutest, I really love my gift!
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| She is precious! 😍 |
To the right of her is my golden book-shaped clock/photo frame with a picture of young Matt Damon. Another colleague found it in Value Village and told me I should get it, and I figured, why not! Haha. Work has been filled with so many fun things these days... I'm truly fortunate.
Monday, July 29, 2019
FE Rambles & Co.
I constantly have thoughts swirling through my head throughout the day, but whenever I sit down to try and collect them, I am never successful. It's like whenever I'm sitting in front of the screen, everything I long to say escapes me, but it was never like that before!
I used to be able to sit here and talk freely about whatever was on my mind - things I love to do, things that happened in my day, or whatever feelings were present at the time. Something has numbed me; perhaps, I have numbed myself in the process of trying to grow up.
Anyway, I've been unwell again and sometimes I feel like my body isn't doing right by me. I have a pretty delicate stomach these days and I never used to. There were a couple mornings last week where I threw up on the way to work, and eating certain foods makes feel nauseous. But I digress, I did not come to talk about my boring work issues. I came to talk about FIRE EMBLEM!!!
You see, I've been playing Three Houses and I've been really enjoying being a busty, navel-boasting, expressionless professor at the Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. What? OH LOL, ok wrong fandom. anywho, it's been a real good ride getting to know all the little teenyboppers from the Blue Lions house. i finally realized why i enjoy Fire Emblem so much, as opposed to other gaming franchises.
a central theme in FE is being a noble (lord/lady, prince/princess) and born into whatever role they happened to be in. I often feel like I am trapped in my role as well. My family has always been a loving one. Although i do not always get along with my younger siblings, i know they care for me, and my parents would do anything for us. i enjoy the benefits of coming from a loving family who is financially stable. i drive a car, i have a job, i own a dog, i can afford to dine out and purchase nice things, whatever i fancy, to an extent. but i am fully aware that these blessings come from my family, who i was born as on this earth, and very little of are fruits of my labour. it's like being from a noble house in Fire Emblem.
i owe so much to my family that i have a role to fulfill. as a daughter, as a big sister, as a lady. i feel the pressures surround me and i know i cannot escape from my obligations to my family, even though sometimes all i want to do is run away. it is the way of things, isn't it? i couldn't possibly make it on my own without sacrificing a level of my standard of living. many people don't understand that. if i were to live a more frugal life, and gave up a portion of the luxuries i enjoy, perhaps i would be feeling a lot more independent and mentally well. but at this time, i financially carry a portion of my household, and i feel as if that is the way it should be. even if i'm unhappy.
I used to be able to sit here and talk freely about whatever was on my mind - things I love to do, things that happened in my day, or whatever feelings were present at the time. Something has numbed me; perhaps, I have numbed myself in the process of trying to grow up.
Anyway, I've been unwell again and sometimes I feel like my body isn't doing right by me. I have a pretty delicate stomach these days and I never used to. There were a couple mornings last week where I threw up on the way to work, and eating certain foods makes feel nauseous. But I digress, I did not come to talk about my boring work issues. I came to talk about FIRE EMBLEM!!!
You see, I've been playing Three Houses and I've been really enjoying being a busty, navel-boasting, expressionless professor at the Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. What? OH LOL, ok wrong fandom. anywho, it's been a real good ride getting to know all the little teenyboppers from the Blue Lions house. i finally realized why i enjoy Fire Emblem so much, as opposed to other gaming franchises.
a central theme in FE is being a noble (lord/lady, prince/princess) and born into whatever role they happened to be in. I often feel like I am trapped in my role as well. My family has always been a loving one. Although i do not always get along with my younger siblings, i know they care for me, and my parents would do anything for us. i enjoy the benefits of coming from a loving family who is financially stable. i drive a car, i have a job, i own a dog, i can afford to dine out and purchase nice things, whatever i fancy, to an extent. but i am fully aware that these blessings come from my family, who i was born as on this earth, and very little of are fruits of my labour. it's like being from a noble house in Fire Emblem.
i owe so much to my family that i have a role to fulfill. as a daughter, as a big sister, as a lady. i feel the pressures surround me and i know i cannot escape from my obligations to my family, even though sometimes all i want to do is run away. it is the way of things, isn't it? i couldn't possibly make it on my own without sacrificing a level of my standard of living. many people don't understand that. if i were to live a more frugal life, and gave up a portion of the luxuries i enjoy, perhaps i would be feeling a lot more independent and mentally well. but at this time, i financially carry a portion of my household, and i feel as if that is the way it should be. even if i'm unhappy.
Thursday, July 25, 2019
Fiction
lately, i'd rather play mobile games than write anything here in my personal space. there's too much swimming around in my mind these days - i don't want to face or deal with any of it. i've found it difficult to express my thoughts through blogging. maybe i've gotten rusty.
i remember i used to be able to write about anything, but i'm considering a purge. purging everything, starting... nothing new, but just existing in nothing. somehow, that feels comforting. more comforting than having to face a white canvas, struggling to fill it with even a splash of meaning.
i remember i used to be able to write about anything, but i'm considering a purge. purging everything, starting... nothing new, but just existing in nothing. somehow, that feels comforting. more comforting than having to face a white canvas, struggling to fill it with even a splash of meaning.
She still felt the discomfort in her chest – the sudden shortness of breath, as if her lungs were collapsing – whenever he crossed her mind. Their history was short, but she vividly recalled the depths of his eyes, his uplifting smile, the curve of his nose, and his elegant cheekbones...
Monday, July 22, 2019
Waitlist
Sometimes, it amazes me how entitled people really are. How entitled they are, to believe that they are entitled to any ounce of anyone else's attention? Their arrogant personalities sicken me - how arrogant they are! As if they could ever mean something in the grand scheme. But, despite my pretentious thought patterns, they never learn humility. Not my problem now, is it?
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