once upon a dream

Michael's Blessing Rose Headband &
Searching for Baroque Pattern Tights♡

My rose hair accessory and tights from BABY arrived today. The little pink roses look so delicate, and exquisite at the same time... seems really delicate. The entire band is wrapped up in pink ribbon. I can't wait to wear this coordinate~

The fashion show is on Saturday, so I have to prepare for that. At least I have the day off... I'll upload more photos of things I bought later. I haven't had much time for personal things lately...

yeah my boyfriend's pretty cool  |  but he's not as cool as me

-lana del rey, brooklyn baby

ULTRAVIOLENCE

Sweet chocolate biscuit houses~
A mini lolita meet on 6/16/2014

I feel more like a lolita lately. I'm slowly reaching my goals of dressing up in the fashion more! Two other lolita and myself have created a little group of sorts. I hope we can continue to share our mutual love of the fashion.

They say, "do not cast your pearls before swine"; but how can I know who is to be trusted and who will turn to trample me? People are so ugly, people are so disappointing. Lately my attitude is turning more and more bitter and mistrusting towards people. I need to focus more on myself. As if I wasn't selfish enough, already.

I felt that I don't have an identity. I felt I'm trying too hard to be too many different things at once. I don't really know who I am. A lot of women don't care about what others think, they disregard the opinion of others that might be negative. But for me, I'm too nervous about everything. I try to balance delicately on the fine line between conventional and deviance. I can't be like the others, but I feel awkward singled out as well.

I have prooblemmmss~~~ but I just focus on x.

Oh and regarding the lolita meetup I had... Umm, what? Well I guess I forgot to mention that, but I met up with some local lolita and a dear friend of mine. We went to eat Japanese food in the morning in Steveston and then ate again at my favourite high tea place. Here are the obligatory food photos, haha~ I am so lazy to post anything lately. Or write, for that matter. There are too many things on my mind. ;w;

My darling darjeeling tea and macaron... Truly blissful!
"La Petite Cuillere" in Vancouver *^^*

A princess lunch~ "Ichiro" Japanese restaurant in Steveston.
The sushi chef said we were "kawaii lolita" as we were leaving... *^^*

gloria

it hurts tonight. i don't know what.
a mixture of numbness and pain.
a numb pain. hard to describe
like harsh pain dulled by medication
medicated by life experiences
so cruel, so jaded. disappointment
building this barrier to protect oneself,
shutting out happiness. but at the same time
disappointment.

wishing for understanding from the angel
we cannot even see.

Eating the Bread of Idleness

Today I feel so worried. It's normal for humans to feel firstly negative about everything, isn't it? Sometimes I wonder where my life is going because I have a lot of this negativity, but oftentimes it shows up for no reason and is unjustified.

I have a lot on my plate this week. I just have to tough everything out and be mature! I'm going to straighten everything out at home, walk the dog, possibly go to the gym and study in the evening for class. These are all mundane activities I have to perform, aren't they? But to what end and for what purpose?

April 10th is the date. I am waiting for a date in the future to arrive, but time loves to tease.

Untitled Morning

This morning was a morning of mixed emotions. ( p′︵‵。)

I woke up really early and 자기야 came over with his big suitcase, since he was leaving Vancouver on a flight later that afternoon. We got into a tiff over trivial matters, but managed to solve our disagreement with enough time to eat a lovely breakfast at "Locus" on Main St.

I've been there with my BFF before, and last time I got the benny special, which happened to be smoked turkey. I didn't like it *too* much, but the nugget potatoes and coffee are always good to me! My friend got the wild boar poutine, which was a very flavourful and unique dish.

Obligatory food photo of my meal~

I don't have a photo of what I ate this morning, since most of the time I don't take photos of my food anymore; I just eat it! But this morning's choice was much more satisfying than my previous one. I chose the "Main St. Eggs" with bacon, which was delightful.

오빠 got the "Steak & Eggs", which was delicious too. He was really full once we were finished eating, and we both had 2 cups of coffee each. (´；ω；`)

Then we drove to the airport and he had to go check in for his flight while I went back home to do my own things. Yeah... bye-bye, 오빠... I don't know how the time is going to pass by from today on...!!!

Afterwards, I went to Metrotown to meet up with a local lolita to hang out. I also met up with a local alpaca fanatic, ("Alpaca Galore" on Facebook) to adopt this adorable alpaca prince from her. He is such a sweet, cute little baby: a 12cm white prince.

His name is Wilfred. What a tiny, adorable cute little baby!!! ♡

I hope to get two more little babies, another girl and boy. I think the "Caffe Kids" series' beige butler with the green bowtie is adorable, and so is the pink girl from the "Powa Powan" series. I'm mostly likely going to get those two, we'll see~~~

Anyway, my lolita friend and I went to my place to hang out and chat a bit. We watched "Mister Rococo", which was an odd piece of comedy... and that was my day. A bit stressful, and I miss my baby...

Oh, but the one ray of sunshine today is that my BABY dress arrived:

Scalloped hem = love~

I love it a lot, it's like a sister dress to Chocolate Fascinate Fairytale. Anyway, thanks for visiting.