Tuesday, August 27, 2013

cookie cutter


I've been listening to a lot of rap lately, courtesy of Jay-Z's newest album "Magna Carta". Most people would say rap is vulgar and disrespectful, which I agree to a certain extent, but rap can also be lyrical genius! Some of the verses, beats and rhymes of rap songs are really brilliant.

The only thing I don't like is how rap always seems to degrade women into objects for sex, but sexism has always been apparent in the world. Doesn't mean that's the right thing, though.

Although... I suppose since rap is all about male dominance (money, power, women), sexism would obviously be a present subject. I feel like rap songs really reveal the true human nature, the ugly part of humans who want to be on top, who look down on others who are not up to par in their standards. Songs about giving into the dark side, desires without restraints, that sort of thing.

After realizing that, I started listening to female rappers.  And found there is a lot of feuds and stuff between female rappers, too.

The day passed by relatively uneventful. BB and I went to eat at Cactus Club for lunch to celebrate the end of the semester. The spinach salad with beets and goat cheese was excellent, and we had the creole steak and prawns. I had a really good time eating that with my glass of sangria. I got a B in my courses, but I'm very certain I could have gotten an A if I hadn't been sick for two weeks... Oh well, c'est la vie!

Monday, August 26, 2013

sleepless beauty


Final Fantasy seems too childish for me at this point. I've really no interest to play the game... but I would buy it to stack on my shelf. After all, I've been waiting for this game to release for so long. The sole reason I purchased a PS3 so many years ago, and now to hear the game will be released for PS4... 

Why does it feel like I've outgrown the things I used to love?

Even Noctis seems too young for me. Ha-ha... don't tell me I'm a grandma, now...!

Sunday, August 25, 2013

August 2013

At little sis's boyfriend's house with the cat Mischa
I've been too busy to write regularly in the blog, which is all my own fault since I have too many things to do and poor time management skills.

A summary of events that happened over the past couple days include a day trip to Seattle for some shopping, a coworker's family gathering (Mexican-themed -- complete with taco lasagna, cold pasta, and even dried guava balls...a type of candy) and work, mostly.

I'm super happy with my shopping trip as I bought shoes, a Juicy Couture bag and skirt, and lacy items from Victoria's Secret. We even ate a quick late-night dinner at the casino buffet~~ I had a fabulous time. I bought my honey a cute shirt with a hamburger to work out in. And my new black bag will work perfectly as a laptop bag for my MacBook, although I've been using that as a regular bag at the moment.

I've been trying to brainstorm things to write about, but it's hard and I still can't focus properly. A complete lack of clairvoyance on my part. My dry spells never end, so I should probably... learn to tap trees or something. (Catching Fire reference, anyone?)

Oh, I also went to my darling non-biological sister's birthday party this month. We had a relaxing dinner at Miku with her friends; afterwards, we gathered at her boyfriend's house for this crazy after-party. Oh, man... Things totally got crazy, but in a good way. I can't even speak of some of the things I did, ha-ha-ha...

DJ Flipout from the radio station The Beat 94.5 came to do a radio remote for our store at work. It was fun... Blasting loud music while working seemed like being at a party, where we had to talk loudly to explain things to the customers!

Work's radio remote~~ I wore an AP blouse with my Juicy Couture skirt.

I hope to write about something soon. Just need to get cracking and create some plots + develop characters.

Thanks for reading... Appreciate your support, my friends 

Thursday, August 22, 2013

Come And Get It!

Today I finished the last exam for the semester. I should be feeling happy, but I don't. Usually us students can't wait for the semester to end, but I actually enjoyed listening to the professor and cracking jokes with my classmate Lilian. "Earbasher" and "The guy who spent all his money on tattoos so he couldn't afford Tim Hortons" and the long lost "Fauxberry"!!! I'm terrible for making fun of my classmates, haha--

I picked up the package containing my first ever Antique beasT headdress and another AP blouse. I have quite the blouse collection now, but I think I need more accessories. I am an occasional lolita, but I'm proud of that and I don't want to give that up for anything. 

I've actually been looking into purchasing from some indie brands. I missed out on Baroque's "Pearl Drops on Dry Flowers" and also Haenuli's "Royal Kitten", but hopefully something will catch my eye soon. In the meantime, I'll be patient.

That's all on the school and lolita front, but on the Be My Princess front, there are new developments. I finished off Joshua's story and started playing Wilfred's... I wasn't too impressed by his storyline actually.

For one thing... He's kind of a pervert... 

N-N-NOOOO PRINCE WILFRED, THAT ISN'T PROPER!!!
Why did he drag me into this hotel room anyway?!?

And... he doesn't know how to take public transit...

Are you sure? Really? ...Okay.

He also likes to eat girly ice cream flavours...

...??!

He looks like Cloud. LOL.

They all look the same, don't they? Not that I'm complaining!!! Just the way I like 'em!

Anyway... Wilfred's storyline is pretty weak compared to Joshua's. Joshua's storyline had political issues between countries, a rival prince, and a butler that was actually nice. Claude is a little b*stard!!! And I guess I preferred how stiff and formal Joshua was, even though that was borderline rude -- at least he behaved in a proper way. Wilfred just seems pretty lonely and... I don't know, too forward!!!

Well, I did enjoy the cute moments from his route. He's basically another prince that envies the regular life, and acts all formal and expressionless because that's his job and swallows all his inner feelings and junk. He's more touchy-feely than Joshua, and definitely more polite at first.

...Why am I analyzing his personality, anyway? Maybe because this is fun for me, haha.  A lot of my princess mates like Wills, but I definitely prefer Joshy-poo!

Thanks for visiting, you should definitely play BMP if you're into otome games, because you won't regret it. I don't. (Haha!)

Monday, August 19, 2013

Gentleman's Lady

GREETINGS FRIENDS. Gosh I haven't used that phrase for such a long time.

I just want to announce that my studying habits are worse than ever, and also that I love pistachio and raspberry macarons. Hah--!!

I saw that one of my favourite luxury brands, Emily Temple Cute, is releasing a 15th anniversary long jacket. Three words: IT LOOKS DIVINE and I WANT IT. (Okay, so six words.)


UGH THE INSIDE OF THIS JACKET IS THE DAPPER GENTLEMAN RABBIT PRINT. A-AND THAT BISCUIT BUTTON!!! So lovely!!!

But, as usual, reality likes to crush my dreams. This jacket is over $800CAD!!!! So expensive!!!

Ahem, so, Prince Joshua, would you mind purchasing this for me please? Hahaha... /shot/

...That feels good.

It's been a long time since I last got shot...

I feel like I've been spending too much time worrying about what others think and say about me, that I forgot what it truly means to be in touch with myself and my own feelings. And that's a grand shame, because I used to be a rebellious girl who could easily say "F--- YOU!" to anyone who put me down. I actually stood up for myself and shrugged off people who chose to put me down. I need to get back into that mindset, only in a more mature way.

I'm an artist at heart and no matter what I am a writer.


"If you are born an artist, you have no choice but to fight to stay an artist." - Lana Del Rey


... I couldn't agree with that more.

Sunday, August 18, 2013

Lost Kitten

Got home from work and now I am drinking soup and attempting to draw. I haven't drawn anything since 2012. Lately little things cause me to become dejected. I hate always feeling like being on the outside looking in.

Things aren't even so bad. Work is all right, and I have fun joking around with the guys there. My manager is somehow Cloud, I am Tifa (because I don't want to die) and my good friend, the second-in-seniority, is Vincent. Others include Cait Sith, Yuffie, and the late Naruto. Haha, code names for work. Really cute... I suppose everything could be worse.

And despite the busy rush of customers, one of my childhood friends dropped off a hot chocolate from Starbucks to me and briefly said hi. I even got free tea from the old man that always comes by the store. Who can say no to jasmine and chai? 

Maybe the problem is really with me. I always feel like I can't do anything I used to be able to do, but is that a mental block I put up for myself?

I should try harder... Maybe.


I DREW SOMETHING! First pic of 2013. Are you proud? (J-just kidding. Don't be!!!)

I'm gonna draw Prince Joshua. YEAH~~ (No I don't think I can, I really lack the imagination and skill...)

I'm super super grateful to the friends, both close and not-so-close, that support me in my drawing, gaming, and writing endeavours. To whoever reads this, please remember that even a 'like' means so much to an artist. Even if they aren't super "good", being artistic is definitely hard and no one would like to be put down or judged!!!

I'm going to try and blog a lot more. After all, what's the use in having a new Macbook Air if I don't make proper use of it?

Thanks for visiting~~~!

Saturday, August 17, 2013

Be My Princess: Joshua


For the past couple days, I've been playing a game on my phone called "Be My Princess".  This is an otome game and somehow this has become my guilty pleasure to pass the time...

Basically the storyline goes as follows: you are an aspiring young designer, and you miraculously got accepted into a famous fashion label house; I think the designer label name is "Jean Pierre". This somehow leads to you designing outfits for a big fashion show in which six princes from six different countries attend. You somehow become a designer for one of the princes of your choice... because your designs are just that good.

I think I butchered the storyline there, but the jist is apparent! And although all the characters are charming and I was stuck between Prince Wilfred and Prince Joshua, of course I ended up picking Prince Josh because he's so cute, and because his name is Joshua!  He's the prince of Dres Van Kingdom.

Actually, the blond-haired Prince Will is also very charming, much more polite and charming than Joshua. All Joshua really does is insult the MC and... act all pompous and annoying! But slowly he becomes more and more sweet, until he's so attached that he's practically your little puppy dog. Ha-ha...! Tsundere characters like this, I never really liked but I suppose one every once in a while is good.

Can't wait to play Wilfred's storyline but I think for many obvious reasons, Joshua will remain my favourite for sure. 

My little house is so crappy but~~ even these tiny sprites are so cute. (I have visitors whenever Joshua is over, for some reason. These are other princesses playing the game~)



Hope more people can play this adorable game with me, but I understand only a particular type of character would enjoy games like these (laughs). Here are some screenshots:

C-cute...

"What do you plan to do as a volunteer?" XD

Apparently, adding the person's initials in front of their birthday makes it "not [their] birthday" anymore for his phone's password...

Self-explanatory screenshot. :'D ///

Friday, August 16, 2013

When you lie, I cover it up
When you hide, I cover it up
When you cry, I cover it up
When you come undone, I cover it up


you've got my eyes
you'll never be mine,
but you've got my eyes

Thursday, August 15, 2013

doom desire

Don't mind me, this is just more pointless writing fail drabble. Move along now!  15/08/2013 20:10

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Lolita Post: Brand Shoes

I can't sleep, and seeing how the time is almost 2AM in Vancouver, I might as well blog about something that has been heavy on my mind -- pretty pink brand shoes from my favourite brands, Angelic Pretty and Emily Temple Cute. T___T


Pink AP Tea Parties